One of the most harrowing moments in the doc is when Jesy shares the news that her identical twins, Ocean Jade and Story Monroe, have spinal muscular atrophy (SMA1), a genetic condition and severe muscle-wasting disease that means there’s a high chance that the girls will never walk. The couple also shared about how the twins were ‘mono/di’ twins, meaning that they shared the same placenta rather than both sharing separate ones, which is known to increase the likelihood of developmental issues.
In one emotional part of the documentary, the doctor who does her scan sits the couple down afterward and explains that one of the twins is receiving significantly less blood than the other, explaining that, with this condition: “90-95% of the time, both babies don’t make it”.
Despite the seriousness of the twins’ condition, the girls survived, and Jesy remains strong: “I truly believe that my girls will defy all the odds and go on to do things that have never been done before”, she says.
It’s clear that despite all the heartbreak, Jesy loves her new role as a mother. In episode one, while still pregnant, she says: “I really like feeling like a mum. I’m so protective. You’re never lonely and I love that feeling. Before I got pregnant I felt lost.”
She was depressed at the peak of Little Mix fame
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“I was very very depressed when I was in the band,” says Jesy in the documentary, explaining that, just days before quitting the band, she tried to take her own life after feeling like ‘no-one cared’ about her after she’d sat down fellow Little Mix members Perrie Edwards, Leigh-Anne Pinnock and Jade Thirlwall to explain that she wasn’t doing well.
“I just felt like no-one cared… And I remember one of their responses being like ‘are you done now, is that it?’ That just made me feel alone and like there’s no point to this, no-one cares.”
In the doc, Jesy’s mother Janice explains how she was the one to raise the alarm about Jesy’s overdose when she fell asleep while on the phone to her: “For a few days before, she had just been really down and not talking much. She wanted to be on her own quite a lot.
“I got a gut feeling that something wasn’t right. I kept ringing and ringing, but there was no answer. She eventually answered the phone and the way she was talking was really slurry.



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